Radio, steak and sushi...oh my!!!!

Went to the doctor's yesterday. I think I literally saw him for 5 min. I wasted 2hrs for a 5 min consult...how amazing is that? Ok, so I am starting radiation alot sooner than I had expected. The nurse, who was an absolute peach, just said the treatment itself is like getting an x-ray. It lasts 2 min and you are DONE. Amazing! Chemo was literally and 8hr thing, well with the tests and all. I can deal with radio. It's almost over. I can't wait.

I have been eating sushi 3x a week. I am surprised I haven't fallen over yet. This sunday, EGGS BENEDICT! How exciting! I don't think you can appreciate food until someone tells you that you can't eat your faves anymore. It really screws you up.

During my treatment 6, there was this stunning woman sitting across from me. Her teenage daughter and husband by her side. She smelled fresh. She was new. I felt bad. You can pretty much tell who the newbies are. It's sad. The pharmacist came in explaining to her what was going to be HER process. She accepted it. Then she was told she couldn't eat certain foods. Her fave was bloody steak. She cried. My heart sank. She was like, "What do you mean I can't have it?" Like what's the big deal over her steak or my sushi? It's the sense of giving up your control over something which, in turn, controls you.

I saw her yesterday at the hospital. Hotter than ever. Sporting a shaved head likes its no one's business. She is going to have her steak soon for sure.

It's funny because when I was the newbie, I was petrified. I did not want to talk to anyone. Here were patients with their hats, wigs, and shaved heads. I did not accept my predicament. Then here comes newbie with 2ft of hair and they were probably smelling my fear and thinking to themselves, "She has no idea what is about to happen.." Man it sucks. It's like walking into a bar and everyone knows your name...NORM!!! Instead of a bar and making a dent in the stool..it's a hospital. A cubical space. An I-V bag with your name on it. Labels on all the drugs they have to give you. This is not the way I wanted people to know me. But now you know me. It's all good!